It's funny isn't it: the more you blog - the more you blog - the better you blog - the easier you blog - the more the whole thing makes sense.
And then I guess the reverse is true too: the less you blog - the less you blog - the more sticky your words - the fewer photos you take - the less time you can find to post - the less sense the whole blogging thing makes.
At least that's how it works for me. When I'm in it, I love it! And when by accident I take a 10 day break, I can't work out how to get back, or if I even want to.
For a couple of those 10 days I was just too caught up in the goings on around here to think about it much, and then as the days went on I thought about it but didn't have a second to do it, then I had the chance to do it but wasn't sure I wanted to. And then finally this morning I woke up and missed it.
I missed the creative outlet, and the community and I knew in the future I would miss the record of this time in our lives.
I thought about this all morning as I tore up bits of fabric for the girls to tie-dye, I thought about it as we painted melted wax patterns in an attempt at batik, I thought about it while collecting the eggs and feeding the animals, I thought about it while the shearer cut the overgrown alpacas' fleece and while picking Silvan-berries.
I thought about it a lot. My blog has been a big part of my life for the last four and a half years so I guess that makes sense.
And finally at the very end of the day I sat down and loaded the photos and started to type not really knowing how I was going to resolve this and I was overcome with a sense of happiness and calm. I love my blog. I love blogging. It makes me feel good.
And so I guess that means I'm going to keep going. I'm going to keep sharing photos and telling the stories of our family and our life here on our farm. And I guess it's OK that it's not all designery here because in real life it's not either. And sometimes I worry about that in real life too, but mostly I don't care. It's about love and family and life. It makes sense. To me it does anyway.
So I'll be back, soonish. Same blog typeface - same blog template.
I hope you will too.